Gracepower > Willpower

Have you ever grown frustrated by your own failures? Have you ever felt like you lack willpower? Do you ever set out to live a godly life, striving in your own strength to accomplish what you’ve set out to do or become, but every time, you fall short of the mark? This episode will completely liberate you from this feeling and mode of striving and self-sufficiency! Buckle up; today, we’re talking about how God’s grace is not just “unmerited favor,” but it’s the actual power you need every single day to live the life he’s called you to live.

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Have you ever grown frustrated by your own failures? Ever felt like you lack willpower Ever set out to live a godly life, striving in your own strength to accomplish what you've set out to do or become, but every time you fall short of the mark? This episode is going to completely liberate you from this feeling and mode of striving and self-sufficiency. Buckle up. Today, we're talking about how God's grace is not just unmerited favor, but it's the actual power you need every single day to live the life He's called you to live. Welcome to Going Deeper. Welcome back to Going Deeper for the second episode. I hope you guys are having a great day. It is Wednesday when I'm recording this and it's actually just turned seven in the morning. I lead a Bible study on Wednesday mornings. I know this is going to sound crazy to some of you, but we actually meet at 530 at Starbucks and every Wednesday morning and it is definitely a a challenge to get up and be out that early, but it is so life-giving and the Lord has really honored that. So I'm taking the time before my kiddos wake up to record this episode. But I'm really pumped to break down this idea of grace power over willpower. I hope you are too, because this is such an overlooked aspect of grace and it's one of the most important. So let's We're going to get right into it here soon. As promised, I have some recommendations for you. One book I've been reading, albeit slowly, over the past month is called Soul Keeping by John Ortberg. It's definitely not an easy read. I have to read one chapter at a time and chew on the pages for at least a day before moving on to the next one. But that's because it's just so rich. It's full of good substance. And I'll make sure to link that in the show notes. Okay, before we jump in, please help me spread the word and get this podcast showing up in other people's recommended feeds by taking a few moments to rate, review, and share this episode with a friend. And also, as I mentioned in the first episode, I created a companion guide to this podcast called the Go Deeper Guide, where I've compiled a list of my favorite resources like books, podcasts, other links, and 15 ways to go deeper in your relationship with God this season. You can download that using the link in the show notes as well. Okay, we have a lot of ground to cover today, so we're not going to waste any more time. Thank you so much for watching. and kind of tie that into what that has to do in today's topic about grace. So growing up, I grew up Christian. I would say that I grew up in the church, in and out of the church, but I was military. I went to 13 different schools. I was constantly moving. I was never anywhere for longer than a year or two for the most part. Sometimes it would be like three years, but I I say never. That was the average time that I was moving, especially from schools. Because of that, we never stayed in a church for very long. And so I just didn't have roots. I didn't have a rooted faith. I didn't have somebody that was discipling me, that mentored me. So I went into college very much, still very young in my faith, even though I went to a private Christian college. And I wanted to grow in my faith. I wanted to seek the Lord. I was still extremely naive and young. And to be honest, when I look back, I think for me, the biggest thing that I misunderstood, and I know this is going to sound very general, but it's true, is I misunderstood the gospel. And this is why. I kind of felt as though most of my faith was dependent upon spiritual disciplines, like reading my Bible, praying, attending church, attending FCA club, not sinning. It was a very legalistic view of how to be a Christian. And when I fell short of those marks, when I didn't read my Bible consistently, when I didn't pray consistently, when I didn't go to church consistently or FCA consistently, when I slipped up and I sinned and I partied, I staked all of my faith and my Christianese on how well I did. as a Christian, if I was measuring up to these standards. And essentially what had happened is after the first year or two of me being in college and trying and failing and striving in my own strength to live out this Christian life, I constantly failed, constantly fell short of the mark that I had set, constantly fell short of God's mark. And Essentially, I remember coming to the conclusion that maybe I'm just not cut out for this. Like, I just don't have willpower. Like, I'm not strong enough. I'm not disciplined enough. I don't have enough self-control. I'm not, yeah, all of these things. I'm not enough. And again, that's my point when I say that I misunderstood the gospel, because that's That's the gospel. That's the point of the gospel is that we aren't enough. We aren't strong enough. We don't have enough. That's why Jesus had to come and die. And that's why his grace has to be sufficient for us. And so just kind of like using that as a bouncing off point. Looking back, if I had listened to this episode and understood this concept of grace, that God's grace is his divine power, I don't know if I would have fallen away like I did. Because it's such a hope-filled theological gospel truth for every single believer to know that, yeah, you're going to fail. You're not going to measure up. You are not enough. You're not going to be able to do it in your own strength. But there is hope and there is a path forward that doesn't leave you feeling defeated. So I first heard about this idea a few months back, this idea of grace is power, which does make me a little uneasy because that means it took 28 years to fully understand and begin to walk in an extremely basic concept of faith. But even though it's basic, it doesn't mean it's straightforward or easy to understand. And it's certainly not easy to put into practice. In fact, that seems to be the most difficult part for a lot of us. I was listening to a podcast, surprise for us, called The Green Room by Iris Global, and the host was interviewing John Bevere, who I'm a big fan of. He wrote the book, The Awe of God, which is also a great read, by the way. But they were discussing this forgotten about concept of grace. And John, he just discussed grace in a whole new light, a way I had never heard before. And I found a sermon clip from a while back in 2020 of him that perfectly unpacks what he shared in the podcast. And I want to play it for you.

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The survey was done in 2009. Over 5,000 Christians were polled all across the United States. And in this survey, the question was asked, give three or more definitions or descriptions of the grace of God. Now, the overwhelming responses on the survey were forgiveness, salvation, a free gift, and the love of God. Those were the four top answers. Here's the tragedy of the survey. Only 2%, the actual figure was 1.9%. of the over 5,000 Christians that were polled said grace is God's empowerment. Yet this is exactly how God describes his grace. Because listen to what he says to the apostle Paul in 2 Corinthians 12, 9. He says, my grace is all you need for my power. Works best in your weakness or your human inability. In other words, he's saying my grace is my power and it gives you the ability to do what you can't do in your own human strength. I'm preaching myself so happy right now because I know how this will liberate your life. If you look at Peter, Peter writes and says in 2 Peter 1, he says, grace be multiplied to you as his divine power. So Peter identifies God's grace as his divine power. Only 2% of the Christians know this in America. Are you with me? Now, why is this a problem? Because you can't have anything from God unless you believe. And you cannot believe what you do not know. So if only 2% of the Christians in America know that grace is God's empowerment that gives me the ability to go beyond my natural ability, that means 98% of the Christians in America are trying to live godly, holy, in their own ability. Do you know what happens when you try to live holy in your own ability? You miserably fail. So what do you do? You create a doctrine that undersells grace.

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Okay, if you are anything like me, you will want to replay that clip, and I... Actually encourage you to do that because this is exactly what happened to me in college. I was trying to live this Christian life in my own strength by my own willpower without God's divine help. And I did miserably fail over and over again. And I got so fed up with failure to the point where I just stopped trying. And that's when I started to intentionally walk in sin and I distanced myself from God. When I first heard John talk on the podcast about this idea of grace being a source of power or strength, I'll be honest. It was one of those moments when I realized, yeah, the Bible does talk about God's grace as his power quite a bit, but I guess I never put two and two together. I've always simply considered grace to just be God's pardoning. So what do I mean by grace power over willpower? In the book that I'm reading right now called Soul Keeping by John Ortberg, he breaks down this idea of the soul. And in a conversation with Dallas Willard, Dallas drew four circles all within each other. In the inside, in the innermost circle, he wrote this. the will, which is our human capacity to choose. And here's a quote from Dallas. Dallas says, patterns, and attitudes that are deeply rooted in us. And then in the second innermost circle, he wrote the mind and then the body and then the soul. And so the soul encompasses and integrates these three aspects of our lives, our will, our mind, and our bodies, which we won't need to come back to this, but I did want to use Dallas's explanation of the will because I found it really, really helpful. And free will is not obviously a new concept. It's at its simplest. It just means we have the freedom to choose what we want to choose. And in an essay by Stephen D. West in the Gospel Code He says, What kind of nature do we have? And all the ones who grew up in Sunday school said, a sinful one. Right. Okay, so hold on to that. We're going to talk now a little bit more about the secular idea of willpower. Okay, so here's a question. Have you ever looked at the person next to you, the one who seems to excel at everything? They don't do any wrong. They constantly seem successful. They're the ones that are waking up at 5 a.m. and drinking green juice. Have you ever looked at them and thought, they are just so disciplined. They are way more disciplined than me. They have a stronger willpower. I'm just not a disciplined or self-controlled person. I just don't have that kind of willpower. A survey that was taken by the American Psychological Association proves this point. The survey asked participants about certain healthy lifestyle changes, and their number one reason for not being able to follow through on the changes was, drumroll, a lack of willpower. And in an article by the APA, the American Psychological Association, a researcher and a psychologist at Florida State describes three necessary components for achieving objectives. He says, first, you have to establish motivation for change and set a clear goal. Second, you have to monitor your behavior towards that goal. And then third is organization. Whether you're trying to lose weight, kick a smoking habit, study more, or spend less time on Facebook, willpower is a critical step to achieve that outcome. This is why, have you guys ever heard of the book Atomic Habits by James Clear? It is a national bestseller. It's sold over 20 million copies. It's spent over 200 weeks on the New York Times bestseller list. It's probably one of the most bestselling nonfiction books out there. Did anybody else buy this? I bought this book, I can vividly recall the season I was in when I bought this book. I remember thinking, well, like maybe this book could help me. Maybe that's what I need is I need to read this book called Atomic Habits. It's going to help me create good habits. And this book is going to help me create all the spiritual habits that I want to have. And if I have all these spiritual habits, then I will be a good Christian. Like that was kind of the mindset that I had. I wanted behavior change. I wanted to break free from bad habits, aka I wanted to be free from sin. And all of it was motivated by a desire to please God. But it did not solve any of my problems. In fact, that book only made me more frustrated because it further illuminated my lack of willpower and my lack of self-discipline. But I think if I read that book right now, I would probably glean a ton from it. I just wasn't in a place. I didn't have a good firm foundation. I didn't have my feet sunk in the correct sand at that time in order to get anything from that book. Because what I was doing is I was looking outside the word of God. I was looking outside the power and the strength of God via prayer and spiritual counsel to look for the change that I wanted, the spiritual change that I wanted, the growth, the fruit. I was looking outside of the spiritual realm, if you will, to, I was looking to the secular world to help me solve bad habits, sin habits, start new spiritual habits. I didn't have that good firm foundation. Whereas I have that firm foundation now. I have this good, solid, rooted understanding of God's grace and his gospel. And I I would be able to read a book like Atomic Habits now and glean good stuff from it. I probably should reread the book. So I'm not poo-pooing on that book. And I'm certainly not poo-pooing on any worldly resources that can actually be helpful and beneficial for us in growing in our walk with the Lord. Because There are great secular resources that can actually benefit us and improve our spiritual lives, but we can't start there. But this is our culture's way of change. This is our society's battle plan for behavior modification. We want to be better people, healthier, slimmer, richer, etc. So we discipline our wills. That is our solution. According to most psychological scientists, willpower can be defined as the ability to delay gratification, resisting short-term temptations in order to meet long-term goals, and the capacity to override an unwanted thought, feeling, or impulse. That's why we love to listen to speakers like Tony Robbins, who use words like determination and drive and discipline and goals and motivation. Now, I'm not... Saying these are bad words. We should be determined. We should have a drive. We should be disciplined. We can have goals. We can be motivated. These aren't bad things. But people like Tony Robbins, I loved these kinds of people in my early 20s. They were so successful and they got what they wanted out of life. But oftentimes the solutions that they offer didn't seem to work very well for me because my will always seemed to win. I chalked it up to, I'm just not naturally cut out to be fill in the blank. Can you relate? I know you can. Okay. Now, I want to go back to that John Bevere clip I played at the beginning where he says, if only 2% of Christians know that grace is God's empowerment that gives us the ability to go beyond our natural ability, that means that 98% of Christians in America are trying to live godly and holy in their own ability. And what happens when you try to live holy in your own ability? You miserably fail. And then what do you do? You create a doctrine that undersells grace. Okay, I just... I just find that such a powerful idea, and we're going to flesh this out even further. So we know that grace is a gift. We know that it's by grace through faith that we are saved. We know that God's grace abounds, and we know that we didn't deserve Christ's death on the cross so we could have eternal life. We know all of these things. But what we like to do is we associate all of this with our eternity. not our current reality. We don't actually, even though it's all throughout the New Testament, consider grace as the power, the means by which we live out godly lives. We say, I want to please God, but then we get frustrated when the ways of the world fail to produce in us spiritual fruit. We get frustrated when books like Atomic Habits don't help us conquer the sin of gluttony. But if God calls us to live a certain way here on earth, Don't you think he would give us absolutely everything we need in his word to do that? Well, he does. Grace is God's favor, but it's also his empowerment. Paul David Tripp once said, God's grace is the most powerful force in the universe. Okay, let's unpack some scripture to flesh this out even further. So Ephesians 2, 8 through 9 says, which is, this is the most popular one. So what do we see in these verses? One, we see that grace is not something that we can earn. It's a gift and it's not a result of works. We know this. But two, we are also called to do good works. But these works are not to be done through our own power or strength, but by the power and strength of God. I think this is where we get hung up. We get this theoretically. We get the fact that we are not to do good works in our own power or our own strength, but by God's power and His strength. But what does this actually mean? How do we actually live God-honoring lives not in our own power or strength when that's all we've ever known? It's all culture. preaches and what does grace have to do with it? Dallas Willard mentioning him again, is famous for saying in his book, The Great Omission, grace is not opposed to effort. It is opposed to earning. Earning is an attitude. Effort is an action. That's why Paul says in 1 Corinthians 15, 10, but by the grace of God, I am what I am. And his grace toward me was not in vain. On the contrary, I worked harder than any of them, though it was not I, but the grace of God that is with me. So in this verse, Paul combines this idea of grace as something earned and something that requires intentional effort. He says, I worked harder than any of them, which is effort, though it was not I, but the grace of God that is with me. So it's this grace plus effort, but then effort by grace and the power of God. It's this infinite loop. In his second letter to the church in Corinth, Paul builds upon this idea of grace as power. Second Corinthians 12, 9 through 10 says, but he, God, said to me, I Verse 2. Verse 3. is the energy source we need to cling to through the work of the Holy Spirit in our lives. Society does not boast in weakness. In fact, society tells us to strengthen our weaknesses or to just ignore them and focus on our strengths. But we see Paul saying, it's through my weaknesses that God's power comes alive and begins to work in my life. It's when we come to this place When we realize I'm not supposed to please God and bear fruit and live a godly life via my own natural ability or willpower. In fact, it's through my lack of willpower that God's power, his strength is able to show up and transform because then he gets the glory, not us. Okay, let's look at another verse, Titus 2, 11 through 13. It says, for the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, which that's the first part. That's that unmerited favor that we love to talk about that we know and remember as Christians. But then it goes on, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions and to live self-controlled, upright, godly lives in the present age. So we see here in Titus that the grace of God is what trains us to live godly and self-controlled lives. This is so countercultural. How does God's grace toward us, his forgiveness, his unending love and mercy, his outstretched arm, his endless second chances, how does this train us to live holy lives. Bill Gaultier once said, we have to open ourselves to God's grace. We have to interact with it through training our body and soul to receive it, respond to it, and work with it. But how do we do that? I want to discuss two ways that we can access or open ourselves to God's grace. One, our posture, and two, our practices. Think of your posture as how you position yourself in relation to Christ and the world. What posture do you typically carry? Is it one of pride? Is it one of self-sufficiency? What about striving? What about faith, humility, dependency? In one of my favorite books of all time, and by now you guys know that I'm a big reader, Humility by Andrew Murray, which truly, you guys should buy that book. It is a very quick read. It is so good. This is what he says. Here is the path to the higher life, down, lower down, just as water always seeks and fills the lowest place. So the moment God's fine men abased and empty, his glory and power flow in to exalt and to bless. This is what we see in the life of Christ. He was humble to the point of death. And it was only through that humility that God was able to display his power and by resurrecting him from the dead, giving everyone else who believes eternal life. So through Christ's humility, God was able to display his power by resurrecting him from the dead. A humble person says, I need God. I can't do this whole Christian life on my own. I can't keep going on like this. I need Jesus. I need his spirit to transform me from the inside out. No self-help book could fix this. I'm done looking to the ways of the world for freedom and transformation. I'm going to look to Jesus. That is having a posture of humility. And then we have to actually trust to have faith and depend on God personally. daily to do just that. We have to take a hard look at our posture and ask, am I not just a person of faith, but am I filled with faith? Am I growing in faith? Meaning, do I wholly and fully trust God in his plan, in his goodness, in his promises? Do I depend on him completely to provide everything I need and show up when I ask him to? Faith, humility, dependency, these postures prime the pump of our hearts, if you will, to receive God's abundant grace in our lives. This is also a key point I need to make because we so often only associate God's grace to this familiar idea of unmerited favor. We also only consider God's grace to be something we receive once or twice, when we are saved and when we are baptized, as if it's this one-time gift. But it's not. Grace is something we have to open ourselves up to receive daily, hourly, moment by moment. Because, newsflash, we sin on the regular. That is why God's grace has to abound, because our sin abounds. Our practices are the next way to access and open ourselves up to God's grace. The two that are most important are repentance and obedience. The beauty of repentance is that you get to return to God Every time you sin with a 100% clean slate, you get to come to his throne of grace as many times as you need in a given day or a given week or a given year and know he forgives you and he loves you. But then once we repent and turn toward him, we have the opportunity to obey. They go hand in hand. It's this continuous daily cycle, but it's one of the toughest things in the world to teach a three-year-old. I'm learning. I... Yesterday. So yesterday was a tough day with my son as a mom. But I want to tell this brief story. Essentially, He was drinking juice. He squirted the juice all over the floor on purpose. And we simply asked him, Bobo, don't squirt juice on the floor. Can you please get a towel and pick that up? Well, as you can imagine, because he's a three-year-old, he threw a fit and he did not want to clean the juice up off the floor. He refused to clean it up off the floor. And it turned into a major moment that it didn't need to be. When I asked my son to wipe the juice off the floor that he intentionally spilled, all I wanted him to do was apologize and say, I'm sorry, Mommy, grab the towel, wipe the juice off the floor, and just say, I'm not going to do it again, and move on. And as a mom who loves him to death— This quick turnaround time between disobedience, repentance, grace, and forgiveness with me and my three-year-old is every mother's dream. We would love for it to be that easy. We would love for our kids to just simply say, oh, you're so right. I'm sorry. Let me fix this. Let me clean it up. And I'm not going to do it again. And then they don't do it again. They don't squirt juice on the floor again on purpose. But that's just not how it goes. He refuses to clean it up. He refuses to apologize. He throws a tantrum. He plans to squirt more juice on the floor. And then he receives a consequence that I don't want to have to give him. It's the same with us. God does not want every time we sin to be a long, drawn-out occasion. I mean, in certain circumstances, I think it naturally is, especially if we're trying to overcome major addictions. But my point is, he's a loving father. He just wants his children to run to him for forgiveness and grace and then be obedient to what he asks of us. But we and the We are the ones who bring on the shame and temper tantrums that can lead to weeks or months of distancing ourselves from God. But it doesn't have to be this way. Repentance and obedience are daily things we must begin to practice to access and open ourselves up to God's grace. Another practice that we cannot forget to mention in this episode, that I almost forgot to mention in this episode, is the power and the practice of prayer. Prayer is our means, the form of communication that we have to God, to the Holy Spirit, to access Him because His presence is with us always. We always have access to Him. But in order to access Him, in order to communicate with Him, we were given prayer. So prayer is absolutely vital to accessing God's grace and his power and his strength and his help and his guidance and everything that he offers us as believers on a day-to-day moment-by-moment basis, when you're having a hard moment and you feel like you are going to give into temptation, it's then that you have the power to pray and ask God for help. And you would be surprised in the small ways that God can show up because we like to think of the big stuff. But here's a really small example. I am pregnant. I am exhausted, as I have already mentioned to you. And I can't tell you how many times I have said simply, God, please give me energy. Give me energy. Help me to get up and to get going. And within about 15 minutes, I will all of a And I have to just know and trust that that's the Lord honoring that obedience to prayer and asking him for help. But he's not going to just give us something that we don't ask for. James talks about this. So can't forget about prayer. Prayer is vital. A few honorable mentions, though, are diligence and perseverance. Remember, Dallas Willard said, grace is opposed to earning, but not opposed to effort. 2 Peter 1 highlights this kind of diligent effort we are to put forth. He says, for this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with goodness, goodness with knowledge, knowledge with self-control, self-control with endurance, endurance with godliness, godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. These things... by the way, cannot be pursued alone without the body of Christ or the help of the Holy Spirit. We have to be firmly rooted in Christ and His church to see ourselves grow in that godliness and see the fruit and the transformation that we want to see in our lives. It can't be done on our own, isolated, or in our own strength. And when I look at my life over the past 10 years, I see so many years of weary striving because I was lazy about being involved in church and being around the body of Christ and attending every other Sunday around my schedule if I felt like it. It wasn't going to bring about the holy change I wanted. But now when I attend every Sunday as much as I possibly can at a church I'm an active member of where I serve and I give and I love, I That has produced fruit in ways I could have never imagined or done on my own because I'm placing myself in positions to grow and to receive God's grace. Paul Tripp put it this way. He said, And by this, I mean... Pursue resources of grace, attend your worship service, join a Bible study or small group, make time for personal prayer and devotions, and seek counsel from older and more mature Christians. If you want to get wet with the grace of God, stand under a fountain and trust the Lord will send the water. But here's what you can't do. You can't become defeated when you don't see growth quickly enough. You can't get defeated when you fall back into the same sin struggle again and again. You can't get defeated when you pray and pray for something and don't get the response you were looking for. This is where all the power lies. The power lies not in a posture of defeat, but in a posture of victory in Christ. Because the world has no hope. When people who are not in Christ experience weakness or Lack of willpower, failure, hardship. They have nothing but the resources of the world to help them. They have no fountain of forgiveness and freedom to run to. They simply look within themselves the problem to become the solution. But we have this great privilege of looking outside of ourselves to the person and work of Christ for freedom and forgiveness. Here's the final sum up here. God's grace is power because it helps us to press on when we want to give up. God's grace is power because it grants us full access to God at all times. We can reach out to Him at any moment for help. God's grace is power because it allows us to do what we could not do on our own. God's grace is power because it gives us the strength to say no to sin and temptation. God's grace is power because it provides us with a guidepost, the hope of our future resurrection and the full restoration of all who believe in him. But at the end of the day, God's grace is power simply because God is all powerful. And when we put our faith and trust in the one who literally spoke the entire world into existence with a single word, I think we're going to be surprised at the supernatural ways that he can show up in our little lives. I mean, who are we that God of the universe is mindful of us? But he is. And so by his grace, we have all the power and the strength that we could ever need to live the life that he's called us to live. So if you're feeling defeated, if you're feeling like a failure, if you feel so frustrated by constantly falling short, no, that's literally why Christ came and died. That's why he died, why he rose from the dead. It wasn't to just give us eternal life. It wasn't to just give us heaven forever. It was to give us himself, everything that he is, his Holy Spirit in us, because we still have a life to live between now and eternity. we are still called by God to live a certain way, to pursue perfection, to pursue holiness, to all of these things that we know, that we see in the Bible. He's called us to these things, but He hasn't left us on our own to just strive in our own strength. He hasn't left us to understand, this is all the things that I'm supposed to do, so I'm going to look outside God's Word. I'm going to look at self-help books and podcasts episodes that are not christian based i'm gonna look at you know people like tony robbins who are giving decent motivational advice and hope that it gives me what i need to pursue a godly life and it's just it's not that stuff can only supplement a little bit and It is not going to be the source of energy that we need to sustain us on a daily basis to live the life that God's called us to live. So I hope that that was encouraging for you today. If anything resonated with you, if you got something out of this, please let me know. You can send me an email, leave a review, share this with a friend. It definitely means the world to me. If you have any thoughts or questions that are lingering that you Um, you want to know more about something, please again, don't hesitate to reach out to me. Uh, thank you guys so much for listening and I will catch up with you in next week's episode.